I knew when I walked passed his hunched over frame that I would have to go back. I pushed my daughter’s stroller ahead and into the grocery store. Lord, you’re prompting me to interact with that homeless man aren’t you? You want me to pray? With Ari with me?
There she was.
She stood all of three feet tall, and she twirled.
She twirled freely, round and round and round.
Like, she was unashamed, uninhibited.
She was uninhibited, because she didn’t know.
“I would like to buy $3 worth of God, please—not enough to explode my soul or disturb my sleep, but just enough to equal a cup of warm milk or a snooze in the sunshine. I don’t want enough of Him to make me love a black man or pick beets with a migrant. I want ecstasy, not transformation; I want the warmth of the womb, not a new birth. I want a pound of the eternal in a paper sack. I would like to buy $3 worth of God, please.” – Wilbur Rees
Wilbur Rees understood what we ourselves don’t always see—we often just want enough of God. Enough to bring healing. Enough to bring abundance. Enough to bring an answered prayer. Enough to bring an encounter and a shiver down the spine. Enough to bring revelation.
“Come to me, all of you who are tired from carrying heavy loads and I will give you rest.” – Matthew 11:28
In January, I designed a journal for a women’s retreat that I attended, with this verse on the cover (see above). Little did I know that this verse would resonate so loudly with me. I have gone back to this verse over and over this past year. As I have gone on this journey through all of my health issues, I have been carrying a heavy load. Things were better for little while and now I am traveling through the darkness again.
I have felt hopeless and tired.
That’s why I keep coming back to this verse. God tells us to come to him when things get too hard and He will give us rest. So why do I continue to try to carry this burden on my own?
Isaiah 40:31 says “But those who trust in the Lord for help will find their strength renewed. They will rise on wings like eagles; they will run and not get weary; they will walk and not grow weak”
I need His strength. I do not want weakness or to be weary. I want to walk, run… soar.
And when they came to the Jordan, they cut down trees. 5 But as one was cutting down a tree, the iron ax head fell into the water; and he cried out and said, “Alas, master! For it was borrowed.”
6 So the man of God said, “Where did it fall?” And he showed him the place. So he cut off a stick, and threw it in there; and he made the iron float. 7 Therefore he said, “Pick it up for yourself.” So he reached out his hand and took it.
I read through this scripture during my quiet time the other day, and while I’ve read it before, this time I paused to pray and ask God what the point of this scripture is or how I could apply it directly to my life. The study notes in my Bible are pretty silent around this scripture and instead of Googling or researching online, I wanted to pray and ask God what He wanted me to take from it.
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My husband slid our car into a parking space at the shopping center near his work, and kissed me and our baby girl goodbye. I watched his grey suit dance across his back as he headed for a day at the office, and I situated myself in the backseat to nurse our daughter before a busy day of grocery shopping and errand-running.
As I sat there, I watched a cluster of crows and tiny birds pick at food on the ground in front of me. There’s always something about birds eating that reminds me of Matthew 6:26:
“Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?” (NIV)